When I was in High School I had all my friends convinced that my middle name was Hannah. So my name was Juliana Hannah Johnson. As stupid as that sounds they believed me. Cause who would make up such a stupid lie? I would, that's who. I think if I could have a new name I would want it to be a middle name. I've never had one and I want it!!!! In kindergarten when my teacher, Ms. Painter ask what my middle name was I told her it was Ana. It seemed to make sense. Although I don't like being called that. For that matter I don't like being called Julia or Julianne either. Julie or Juliana (pronounced ana like Montana, not awe-na). At work I could go by whatever name I felt like. I work in a restaurant and I don't wear a name tag. Sometimes I say my name is Gladys. I think tomorrow I'll try Mitzy. It's a good one. Mitzy it is.
Nothing. Not one damn thing. No guarantees here. Hell, if'n I wanted 'em I sure picked the wrong life. There is nothing about what I do and how I live that says to me; "Everything is going to be alright." I know it's going to keep going. I think about it and from the looks of it I'm going to have to keep living for like fifty more year. Sometimes that really bums me out but there isn't really any way around it. So maybe things aren't going to be alright. Maybe they go horribly wrong in ways I can't even imagine but that's okay cause that is what life is. I hope in 2011 I'll be able to make life less about how things are "going to" be and more about soaking it where they "are". Even when how they are sucks super bad.
December 25 – Photo – a present to yourself Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and [...]
This makes me so sad. I lost all my photos. They were all saved in my stolen laptop. So so sad.
This year I made a real effort to cook more at home. It was great!!! I made wonderful food for my friends but my favorite was no-bake cookies. They are super easy and just the most wonderful decadent thing in the world.
As cynical as I can be I do tend to explode from time to time with quantities of unwarranted enthusiasm for all sorts of junk. Here are some things from 2010, in no particular order;
Fried-egg grilled cheese sandwich.
Organic Wine "Well Read" is my favorite.
Ladies Wine Night
The Griddle
Blogging
Sketch Comedy Writing
Coffee
Stand-up
Stand-up in Coffee Shops
etsy
regresty
Clean Sheets
Getting sheets dirty (this was a good year for sex)
Curtains
Throw pillows
Well, that's the short list. I'll be the first to say that I'm surprised more weren't food based.
December 28 – Achieve What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today. (Author: Tara [...]
I really like this prompt. Sometimes it's great to remind yourself that whatever it is you want and whatever that thing will make you feel you have the power to experience that emotion right now. Not discounting the experience of achievement but you can feel good even before you get it.
I really want to take my comedy to to the next level in 2011. I want to be able to travel and book shows and even get paid. I would like to audition more and work more as an actor. I guess if I want to boil it down to one achievement or goal. I would like to get paid for my creative work. It would make me feel HOPEFUL. Working in this business in this town can at times feel pointless and stagnant. Having that tangible representation that my work is appreciated would make me feel like I'm moving forward toward my goals. But what's great is that I can have hope today. In fact I'm feeling right now. I hope that as my life keeps going that the things I want for myself will somehow be able to find me.
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