Wisdom, 11 things I can do without, Sex, Action, Appreciation. This entry has it all!!

Sorry Y'all.  I've been sick and also super over-worked.  Playing a little catch-up.


December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

When I found out Craig cheated I had the choice of ignoring it or confronting it.  I could have lied to myself and him.  The relationship with Diana was long over by the time I found out.  Why bring it up?  Right?  Except that I wanted a relationship that worked and it couldn't with lies.  I hoped that he'd give me an explanation and we could see about moving on.  His reaction was not what I was looking for.  He just left.

I confronted Craig.  I didn't have to, I could have just pretended that I didn't know.  I'd still have Craig but I wouldn't be happy with myself.  Not sure how it's "played out".  I feel pretty shitty but I know it was the right thing to do.  Even if it didn't turn out the way I wanted it.

December 11 – 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (Author: Sam Davidson)

1. Fast food- No matter how hungry I am it is always a bad decision.  I never need it and will feel better with out it.
2. Procrastination on finishing my script.  I can and will finish this thing.  UPDATE.  My Comput-o-box was stolen so the script is gone gone gone.  But I take this as a call to action to bring it back to life.
3. Over-working at my "day-job".  It's not my passion and therefore not worth as much time as I'm putting into it
4. Negative self-talk.  It really serves no purpose in my life.  It's just a bad habit that I've had for 29 years.  It's time to phase it out.
5. Cigarettes.  I quit smoking after my birthday but started again after my break up.  Every time I light up I remember how much I don't enjoy it.
6. Sugar.  I don't need it.  I just love it.  It isn't my friend.
7. Procrastinating seeing the Dr.  I need to see a Dr (and my dentist while I'm at it).  Alas, ignoring the problems aren't making them go away.
Speaking of Ignoring problems.
8. Ignoring problems.  This happens whenever something scares me.  I try to pretend it doesn't exist.  It's something I can stop doing now.  Right?
9. Back pain.  It has been decided.  This year I shall get myself one of those memory foam mattress toppers and better insoles for work.
10.  Worrying about money.  Whether I have a lot or a little I always worry about if I'm going to have enough in the future.  No matter how well I plan I always worry.  Nuts to that!!  That also goes for worry about the future in general.  More living in the moment.
11. Making due/ putting up with things.  I was taught to "make the best of things".  This can be great.  It has made me resourceful and tough. This also sucks and sometimes gets me into trouble.  I put up with things that I don't have to or worse, that are bad for me because I can take it.  It's good to be tough but not good to take a beating just cause you're able to

December 12 – Body Integration This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)

For this one I'm going to steal for my favorite writer of the moment. Ian McEwan.  In his novel "Saturday"

 "...thier movements are quick and greedy, urgent rather than joyous - it is as if they've returned from exile, emerged from a hard prison cell to gorge at a feast.  Their appetites are noisy, their manners are rough.  They can't quite trust their luck, they want all they can get in a short time.  They also know that at the end, after they've reclaimed each other, is the promise of oblivion."

Yeah, that just about describes it perfectly.  I had some great sex this year.  I was very much in love with this man and being with him was some of the least self-concious, most present, perfectly focused moments of my year.

December 13 – Action When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

Next step was to get a new agent but lucky for me I got one about a week ago.  I'm really hopeful and excited about working with this guy and what we can do together.  So I guess my next next step is to get my stand up act recorded and online.  I'll just have to do that tonight--I have a show.

December 14 – Appreciate What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)

My dear wonderful friends.  I have so many great people who for some reason have decided that putting up with my crap is worth it.  I truly would not be able to keep my life going without them and I am so grateful for everything that contribute to my life and well being.  In recognition of that gratitude I am, in 2011, going to make every effort to not be such a huge pain in the ass.  I can't say that I will never be but I will try my very best.

December 15 – 5 Minutes Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)

Truth be told I write everything down.  I keep journal after journal.  But really writing it down doesn't really keep the memory.  It more of a memory jogger.  If I didn't have the memories then I don't think the journaling would be worth much.

That is all for now.  If I can do 5 more tomorrow I'll be all caught up.